Sunday, January 23, 2011

"What's to become of me?"

Life's a funny thing. Well, ironically it's not usually funny when we use that phrase. Another funny thing. But unrelated to what I came here to blog about.....

So I feel like I keep going through these huge ordeals to make big decisions and then I decide and think I should be good for at least a couple of months. And then another big decision seems to pop up that needs dealing with. "I just cleaned up this mess! Can't it just stay clean for like, five minutes??" - Incredibles

My current life dilemma is what to do this summer. The good thing is I have a few things I know I don't want to do. Or can't do. So that knocks a few apples out of my choice basket.

I pretty much know I'm going to stay out in Provo and take classes at least Spring, probably summer.

But I just have that itch for change, which makes no sense because I LOVE my apartment, I LOVE my roommates, and I love my ward! So why would I want to change any of that you ask? Ok, maybe you didn't ask, but Chelsea has asked me multiple times. I DON'T KNOW!! I just have this feeling of inexplicable discontent. I need something to change; something to look forward to; some change in environment; some struggle for survival!! And plus what's the fun of staying with what you're comfortable with? I've gotta live up the spontaneity of college life while I can!

(First Roommate photo at our stake opening social- Sarah, me, Alice, and Chelsea)

So you're probably reading this saying, cool. Sounds like you've made up your mind. Just go move already. Therein lies my problem. I don't know WHERE to go!!! I kind of would like to try the foreign language housing, but its kind of pricey for the spring/summer. So if I don't go there, I pretty much have NO requirements! seriously. And Provo has no end of places to live! So I just get overwhelmed by all the options and decide to think about it later. Then when I get back to thinking about it, I start at the same logical starting race post and make it to about the same marker in my metaphorical racing logic analogy. which happens to be nowhere! :) In the past I've always felt really strongly about one place we've found and we just go and do. I haven't got that yet, so maybe I haven't found the right option. Blech....I'm too busy doing school to worry about where to live.

So I'm hoping by blogging my thoughts I'd make it to a new racing marker.

I think it might have helped.

I'm thinking the language housing is a good option. It'll force me to keep my Spanish up (and I've learned there's no better way to learn than by speaking immersion!) Then I'll get to see a new side of campus, meet new people, get home made dinners every night (required by the housing), I'll be closer to the temple. I like the sound of this!

Dang it. I just got myself sold on the idea, and found out you have to have completed Span 102. maybe I can get it waived.

Ok. Goal for tomorrow.

Anyway. Now for where you, my readers, come in.

HELP ME!!! Suggestions, advise, contract info, anything!!

kthanks. :D


  1. Kate,

    Maybe the calendar is different in Utah, but back home we just started the current semester. I used to not worry about summer until, well, the day after finals! On the other hand, I always knew way ahead of time what I was going to do every summer (music, mission, music, music, airline job/music, airline job/prep for music grad school).

    Just a thought, though: maybe that itch to change is a temporary need. I love to travel. But part of that is loving to come home ultimately. Do you have to work? Do you have to stay in Provo? Is there a place on the map you are itching to know more about, where there might be a summer job opening?

    You are a talented and smart girl, and maybe restless to show the world those qualities. Then, after you've had your fill for the time being, you return to Happy Valley and your regular groove.

    Just a thought. Good luck with the decisions, though!

    Eddie Carr

  2. I know! I know! Pick me! I just think that you need to wait a little bit, then meet the right guy, and...... Get married! Problems solved. You'd get your change and you wouldn't completely ditching your amazing roommates (you'd just be moving in with the roommate you're going to have for the rest of your life). See, all you needed was a little advice from your wise married friend. hehe, but if that doesn't pan-out for you, maybe you just need to wait a little more and the right thing to do will come and hit you over the head (or something equally dramatic and painful)

  3. Take Span 102.

    or get married. That would be a good change. haha.

    love you

  4. the flsr is really strict and cramped, but i'm sure it would be really fun. Just know that the meals are mandatory, so if you wanted to go do something during the evening, it would be frowned upon if you missed dinner group. Talk to Jamie about the flsr.
    You could always try camping all summer! That would be a unique experience! ;)

  5. I agree that marriage is a good option! (: I also think they should wave the 102. I also think Hershey is lovely that time of year! I have an opening on my couch! (: